My earliest memory is watching my mum slit her wrists, when I was three. She was manic-depressive, and she self-harmed until I was 15. She’s got marks all the way up her wrists, which is why I’ve got the names of my two elder daughters, Mollie and Lilly, tattooed on my own wrists. I was an only child, and had to grow up very, very quickly. I automatically became my mum’s carer. I had to take on a lot as a child. We lived in Warrington and I went to eight schools, I had four sets of foster parents, lived in three refuges, and now, aged 31, I’m living in my 47th house, but I’m the most level-headed I’ve ever been.

My family tree is complicated. My mum had an affair and got pregnant with me. After coming to see me when I was six weeks old, my birth father went back home to his wife and kids. When I was born, Mum was seeing another guy, who I used to call Dad. His dad was my “grandad”. Then my mum left him for his dad. So the man I called Dad became my brother and the man I called Grandad, who was 30 years older than my mum, became my dad. They got married – the most stable period of my childhood. Then my mum left him for a woman.

To understand my life you need to understand my mum’s life, as she had no one really. My maternal grandad is Hungarian. He escaped from Budapest to Britain during the war. Mum was born, and, like her brothers and sisters, was put into care. Her birth mum was a prostitute and left Mum in an alley. My Nanna Betty, who is not a blood relative, fostered my mum when she was still a baby. When my mum was 14, her birth mother found out where she was, turned up and threatened to take her off Nanna Betty unless Betty took in my mum’s real dad – this big Hungarian guy with all these gold teeth. Nanna Betty and my mum’s real dad fell in love, got married and had kids, Angela and Andrew, my auntie and uncle. When my mum was put into an institution after having me, Nanna Betty brought me up too. So you can understand why my mum is fucked up.

I’ve always tried to please people, make them laugh. Sitting in front of my mum, who was wanting to kill herself because her fella had died, I thought: “You selfish cow – what about me? Am I not good enough?” I always felt really worthless. I always wanted to please her and make everybody love me, and I used humour as a defence mechanism.

I hired a private investigator to find my birth dad four years ago. He got me a picture and video of him, and I was happy to leave it at that. I didn’t want to knock on his door and say to his wife: “Hey, your husband had an affair. And guess what? His daughter’s Kerry Katona.” That’s a kick in the teeth innit? But he died a few weeks after I got that photo, and now he’s gone I regret not meeting him. Especially when I found I had half-brothers and sisters and his widow said: “If you’d knocked on our door 10 years ago, we’d have welcomed you with open arms.” That’s a void that will never be filled.

I have so many kids [four] because I want to make sure that if anything happens to me, they’ve got each other. I don’t want them to go through shit in their lives on their own like I did. I want them to be so much better. When they’re naughty, I make them kiss, hug and make up. Every breath I take is for my kids. They’re my life.

• Kerry Katona is on This Morning at 10.30am on ITV1 on Mondays talking about Dancing on Ice

SHE’S one lucky lady!
Kerry Katona says: Steve and I had the most amazing Valentine’s Day together.

I woke up in the morning and I gave him a card and a big blow-up picture of us both and the book The Secret, which was quite romantic – but all I got from of Steve was a docking station for my iPhone!

I thought it was odd because he’s usually so romantic, but later that day a huge bouquet of flowers arrived and he told me to meet him at his house and a car took us for the most romantic meal at The Dorchester.

When we got home, I walked into the bedroom and the Adele song Make You Feel My Love came on and he’d lit 22 candles (because we met on 22nd of the month) and he had rose petals on the bed with a jewellery box in the middle with an amazing pair of earrings.

It was so beautiful. I wanted to cry because no one has ever done anything like that for me before.

I’ve never felt such love from somebody in my life.

Steve is so perfect and I can’t believe how lucky I am to have him.

He’s definitely The One, I can’t speak for Steve, but the way he makes me feel, that is it for me.

Source: OK MAGAZINE.

The 31-year-old star looked glowing as she enjoyed a night out in London with her artist boyfriend Steve Alce last night.
The happy couple were on their way to famous nightclub Chinawhite to attend the Terry O’Neill charity auction

With her cropped blonde hair firmly in place, Katona’s made-up face looked flawless as she strolled hand-in-hand with her dark-haired beau.

The former Atomic Kitten star obviously wasn’t feeling the cold temperatures as she stepped out bare-legged and wearing an unusual wrap-style coat.

The nude-colored garment with brown leather trim was no doubt hiding a glamorous dress underneath which Kerry teamed with light-coloured stilettos.

Alce – who has been dating Kerry since late last year – also dressed up for the event wearing smart grey trousers.

He teamed them with a black shirt, brown shoes and kept warm in a navy blue winter coat.

British celebrity photographer O’Neill was auctioning off limited edition photographs including portraits of The Rolling Stones, Audrey Hepburn and Amy Winehouse with all the proceeds being donated to the British Forces Charity Help for Heroes

Hopefully it wasn’t a late night for Katona as she was up bright and early this morning to celebrate her daughter Lilly’s birthday today.

‘Happy birthday to my baby girl Lilly, 9 today xxxxx’ she tweeted earler on today along with a photo of the blonde child tucking into a pink doughnut for breakfast.

Katona also posted photos of her other three children Molly, ten, Heidi, four, and three-year-old Max tucking into the sugared treats as they wished their sister a happy birthday.

Source: Daily Mail

Which appears to be a good thing, since daughter Heidi has already found herself a ‘boyfriend’.

The former Atomic Kitten star tweeted a photograph of her four-year-old proudly beaming next to her new male companion – who is none other than Insania singer Peter Andre.

Alongside the picture, Kerry has posted: ‘Our Heidi new boyfriend’ – who at 38, happens to be a mere 34 years older than Heidi.

After joking about the romance, the mother-of-four then started gushing to Peter after he wrote: ‘Having a lovely dinner with @kerrykatona7 and kids and bro and Sifu Paul. Missed you kezza.’

She responded: ‘@MrPeterAndre hey darling thank you so much for tonight, the kids loved it there both out cold love ya (sic) xxxxxxxxx’

Kerry added: ‘had a lovely night with @MrPeterAndre thanks for dinner…. ive missed ya xxxx
‘well thats me done for the day guys in bed with our heidi off to dream land night night guys ive had a bloody lovely day!!! xxxx’

The pair first became close in 2004 after taking part in the third series of I’m A Celebrity… Get Me Out Of Here! with Katie Price.

They rekindled their friendship after Kerry signed a contract with Peter’s management team Can Associates after splitting up from ex-husband Mark Croft.

Kerry is now thought to be pursuing a showbiz comeback, and has hired an agent after setting her sights on a role in Coronation Street.

She told The Sun: ‘Imagine it, leopard print jacket, cigarette in me gob, “All right love, lager and lime?” I’d be right at home.

‘People don’t realise how much acting I’ve done. I was in a comedy drama Showbands which was only shown in Ireland and obviously there’s the Iceland adverts.’

Source: Daily Mail

But Kerry Katona looked as though she may have lapsed on her new lifestyle last night, looking slightly fuller in the face.
The 31-year-old partied at DJ Ironik’s birthday with Spice Girl Melanie B’s sister Danielle.

The pair were joined by their boyfriends – Kerry’s beau artist Steve Alce and Danielle’s fiancé George Lee.

And they ran into Kerry’s rival and former Celebrity Big Brother housemate Amy Childs, whom she appeared to have patched things up with.

Posing in just a bikini last week, the mother-of-four revealed she had gained an uncomfortable amount of weight during her summer stint on Celebrity Big Brother, continuing to gorge on bread and cheese after her time in the house.

But she lost her excess bulge the healthy way with an intensive four-day session at GI Jane Boot Camp, where she shed an incredible 2lbs each day.

On her return home, she continued to work with her trainer Liam Lonergan which helped her drop from a size 10-12 and weight of 10st 4lb to a size 8–10 and around 9st 4lb.

And she said she had only gorged just twice over Christmas.

Kerry’s weight has yo-yoed in the past and at her biggest, she was 12 stone.

In 2009, Kerry shrunk to a tiny size 6-8 and weighed just 8st 5lb through over-exercising.

But her new petite frame was too unrealistic to manage and she gradually gained weight again.

Last night, Kerry hid her frame in an oversized navy tuxedo-style jacket with a black leather lapel.

But she showed off her ample chest in a skin-tight black dress with lace shoulders.

She added a pair of tights and black ankle boots to complete the look.

Kerry was seen sporting the same jacket over the weekend during a shopping trip with her new boyfriend Steve, who she has been dating for two months.

But she looked like she was having a great time, laughing and joking with Danielle outside.

She tweeted that she was having a ‘great night’ with her friends, and added a photo of her and Danielle laughing, and another of their boyfriends, joking: ‘The happy couple’.

Afterwards, she tweeted: ‘Had a great night with @_daniellebrown and @SteveAlce soooo nice to get out with the greatest friends ever… Thank you!! Xxxx.’

And she has clearly put her differences with Amy aside.

The pair were seen hugging, despite a war of words after they were eliminated from the house last year.

They had appeared to be the best of friends when they were in the house but became involved in a feud which began when they both set their sights on fellow housemate Lucien Laviscount during their time in the house.

After leaving the Channel 5 reality show, Amy revealed she was feeling very hurt over Kerry’s comments that she was just interested in actor Lucien because of his celebrity status.

And she hit back at Kerry’s criticism over her social life, adding she thought Kerry was her friend.

She wrote in her new! magazine column: ‘I’ve kind of had enough of Kerry Katona making little digs about me in interviews.

‘Last week, she said she had nothing in common with me and said I;m always in Sugar Hut.

‘I’m not a mum, but I love kids, so I thought we had common ground there.

‘But to say I’m out all the time is a bit rich coming from her – she’s out more than me!’

Source: Daily Mail

But it didn’t arrive in Kerry Katona’s mail – and that’s probably just as well.

Kate and William may not of approved of her antics yesterday, as she and boyfriend Steve Alce donned masks of their faces.

The couple were seen shopping in Kent wearing the hilarious masks, but Kerry took things a little bit further when she pulled a lewd sign with her finger.

The 31-year-old eventually took it off as she browsed the shops, but it was back on again for the drive home

She looked like she did well for herself, walking out of the Lipsy shop with a black bag.

Kerry, 31, looked stylish in a pair of blue skinny jeans, a stripped shirt and an oversized tuxedo-style jacket.

She completed the look with black Ugg boots

Steve, who she has been dating for about two months, did not take his William mask off at all, probably still adjusting to the former Celebrity Big Brother contestant’s life in the spotlight.

Speaking of the Royal Wedding last year, Kerry said: ‘I’d love an invite to the wedding. But I’d probably get kicked out for trying to do the can-can in the middle of the dancefloor.

She added; ‘I wouldn’t like to be in Kate’s shoes. I feel pressure being Kerry Katona and I’m a nobody.’

Source: Daily Mail

Although she may have had a headstart by kicking off the detox before 2012, she has done an incredible job not to let the diet slip and said she gorged just twice over Christmas.

The mother-of-four revealed she gained an uncomfortable amount of weight during her summer stint on Celebrity Big Brother, continuing to gorge on bread and cheese after her time in the house.

Despite looking confident posing in a blue bikini and nude platform heels for Closer magazine, Kerry said she would still opt for a tummy tuck if she could afford it.

Although she has already been under the surgeon’s knife for liposuction, a breast reduction and a breast lift, the former Dancing On Ice contestant is willing to have another go at a nip/tuck.

She said: ‘After having four kids, I’m not confident about my belly. When Max was born in 2008, I was offered liposuction for a TV show – and I think I’d have it all if I could get it for free.

‘In the past few weeks, my arms have become super toned. I feel like Arnold Schwarzenegger… but I still hate my stomach. If I could afford it, I’d have a tummy tuck.’

But Kerry should be rewarded for losing her excess bulge the healthy way with an intensive four-day session at GI Jane Boot Camp, where she shed an incredible 2lbs each day.

On her return home, she continued to work with her trainer Liam Lonergan which helped her drop from a size 10-12 and weight of 10st 4lb to a size 8–10 and around 9st 4lb.

She said: ‘I pigged out on a massive Christmas dinner, but I was good for the rest of the day. Luckily, I’ve never liked mince pies or Christmas pud.

‘My boyfriend [artist Steve Alce, 33] was there and everyone got on really well and then on New Year’s Day Danielle Brown [Mel B’s sister] came over and cooked up a delicious lunch.

‘They’re the only two days I had off from my detox!’

The 31-year-old, whose weight has yo-yoed in the past and at her biggest was 12 stone, added: ‘I was eating loads of bread and cheese – that’s why I put on weight.

‘I’d gained a stone, but going to boot camp gave me the kick up the bum I needed!”

In 2009, Kerry shrunk to a tiny size 6-8 and weighed just 8st 5lb through over-exercising.

But her new petite frame was too unrealistic to manage and she gradually gained weight again.

This time, Kerry insists she can keep off the weight as her focus is to be healthy, not skinny.

She said: ‘I was extremely thin because I was doing a lot of exercise. I kept it all off up until last August before I went into CBB.

‘But the difference now is I’m exercising because it’s good for my brain, it makes me feel good.

‘I don’t exercise because I want to be skinny, although the upside is you do look better.

‘With Liam, I did lots of boxing and some really tough work with kettlebells, which are a killer!’

Kerry added: ‘Being healthy is manageable as long as you’re in a routine. You need to eat little and often – but I don’t like the word diet.

’2011 was a massive turning point, personally and career-wise. I’m proud of the struggles I’ve overcome; hopefully I’ve helped men and women going through bankruptcy, divorce and all that!

‘I’ve turned down doing another reality TV show and I feel like I’ve got my life back – and, more importantly, I’ve got my private life back.

‘I’m out of bankruptcy, my divorce is finalised and I have custody of kids, what more could I ask for?’

Source: Daily Mail

Everyone thought it was the beginning of the end for the 31-year-old former Atomic Kitten’s career.

But the mother-of-four has managed to turn her fortune around and swung full circle back into the nation’s heart.

After a stint on Dancing On Ice, Celebrity Big Brother and a couple of heartfelt magazine interviews the former singer has been given a full time presenting job on This Morning

And Kerry, who broke down when she watched her shambolic performance on This Morning yesterday on Daybreak, said she can finally see what was going wrong in her life and has vowed never to go back.

She told The Sun: ‘I never want to go back to that person again. I think everybody gets lost, nobody is perfect.
‘After the infamous interview, a lot of people would not have had a comeback

‘When I watch that back, I feel so sorry for her, it’s like I am watching someone else.’

The twice-wed mother, who says she has come full circle, blames an unhappy marriage and prescription drugs for her performance.

She said: ‘When I look back to that era, it makes me cringe. I feel embarrassed and ashamed. I think after you hit rock bottom, the only way is up.’

Now the former reality star is counting her blessings

She said her children, new found presenting slot and personal life keep her going.

And Kerry, who said she has been clean for two years, feels like she has finally got the control back in her life.

As well as the This Morning slot, where Kerry will be sharing her expertise on this year’s Dancing On Ice contestants, the former Queen of the jungle is also taking part in Channel 5′s Celebrity Wedding planner.

Kerry said she is pleased to be working with the This Morning crew as presenters Holly Willoughby and Phillip Schofield are so family orientated.

The cheeky star even said when she saw Phillip at a party after that interview she told him she wanted to slur at him as a joke, showing how far her recovery has come.

But one thing which is definitely off the cards is another reality series.

Kerry said: ‘I had a great experience doing the next chapter but I am glad its over.’

Source: Daily Mail